Fairytale (2017- Commitment Issues)

She's raised to think she loves all pink
And prince charming will take her hand.
She shouldn't think, her waist should shrink
And she will rule his land.

Well she met the prince.
Oh what a bore.
Princess wanted so much more.
She went to the castle,
Knocked down the door,
And took everything she went there for.

She woke the beast up in the beauty,
Alice was an easy catch.
She thinks that wicked witch's a cutie,
Queen of hearts has met her match.
She taught Rampunzel about hair pulling,
Ariel what wet's about,
Cinderella- fortune's dulling,
She kept Jasmine up all night.

Town's heard her sin,
The priest came in
And tried to set her right.
He couldn't win,
Made his head spin,
He finally saw the light.

Well she passed the prince,
Got called a whore.
Princess gave a fuck no more.
She went to the castle,
Knocked down the door
And took everything she went there for:

She woke the beast up in the beauty,
Alice was an easy catch.
She thinks that wicked witch's a cutie,
Queen of hearts has met her match.
She taught Rampunzel about hair pulling,
Ariel what wet's about,
Cinderella- fortune's dulling,
She kept Jasmine up all night.

("She wasn't looking for the knight. She was looking for a sword")

She woke the beast up in the beauty,
Alice was an easy catch.
She thinks that wicked witch's a cutie,
Queen of hearts has met her match.
She taught Rampunzel about hair pulling,
Ariel what wet's about,
Cinderella- fortune's dulling,
She kept Jasmine up all night.

___________________________


 
Circus  (2017 Commitment Issues)

"You're inside my mind. Please sit. I enjoy this kind of conversation, self-inflicted mutilation. Drink?"
"Yes, please."
"Saved private stock for grand occasions and tonight's a celebration"

We're going down!
We're going to drown
Every thought that makes you nervous.
And now take a bow,
Because you're the queen of this whole circus!

"Pick your head up. You're ill. This wave of violence will take you. Nothing else will come to save you."
"Stop. Stand still. Maybe if I take the last two nothing else will ever have to."

We're going down!
We're going to drown
Every thought that makes you nervous.
And now take a bow,
Because you're the queen of this whole circus.

I can't stand what you made out of me. I'm dangerous.
I can't stand what you made out of me. I'm dangerous.
I can't stand what you made out of me. I'm dangerous.
I can't stand what you made out of me.

Two strikes land you in bed that you made, counting prices you paid with rage in us.
Two strikes land you in bed that you made, counting prices you paid with rage in us.
Two strikes land you in bed that you made, counting prices you paid with rage in us.

I can't stand...
I can't stand...

I can't stand what you made out of me. 
Am I who you thought I would be.
Am I dangerous?

I can't stand what you made out of me.
Am I who you thought I would be?
Am I dangerous?

I can't stand what you made out of me.  ( I'm in danger)
Am I who you thought I would be. ( I'm in danger)
Am I dangerous? ( I'm in danger)

I can't stand what you made out of me. ( I'm in danger)
Am I who you thought I would be. ( I'm in danger)
I'm dangerous. ( I'm in danger)

I can't stand what you made out of me.
I'm not who you thought I would be.
I'm in danger.

_____________________________





 
Akrasia (March in the Dark: Chapter II, 2015)

If I could paint, then I would paint you.
A painting would perfectly translate the blurry messages I slurred.
If colors faded, I would save you
from all promises that failed to,
and keep you safe inside my world.

But my hands can only trace things,
my brush is made only to explain strings- making poetry from blurbs.
And what transpired between us lately,
the things I did that made you hate me
left me at a loss for words.

Stop this mistrust.
Stop fighting fate.
Just say something
to break my nothing.
Don't be scared.

If I could act, then I would lie,
say I'm strong and I don't cry..
that I can take on more when I'm full.
I jumped the knife and took the cut
because it meant that you would not,
then said the knife was dull.

And I have lows and I have highs,
I let frustration out through sighs,
and I cleanse my soul with truth.
I read into every word you say,
try to see everything your way,
and I know just what you're worth.

Stop this mistrust.
Stop fighting fate.
Just say something
to break my nothing.
Don't be scared.

 
Reaction (Point, 2007)

Here we go ,a new beginning
Gotta go with what you know.
There’s no reason to start believing
Better burn before you blow.
 
Here we go the stars keep burning
We are gone before they know.
There’s no reason, so please stop asking
Just enjoy the god damn show.
 

Based on instincts.  (chain reaction)
Look deep inside.  (chain reaction)
Based on instincts.  (chain reaction)
Look deep inside.  (chain reaction)
 
 
Here we go ,a new beginning
Gotta go before they know.
There’s no reason to start believing
Just enjoy the god damn show.
Here we go, the stars keep burning
We are gone before they know
There’s no reason so please stop asking
Just enjoy the god damn show.
 

Based on instincts.  (chain reaction)
Look deep inside.  (chain reaction)
Based on instincts.  (chain reaction)
Look deep inside.  (chain reaction)
 

 
 Reaction (Counterpoint, 2007)

You wen’t looking for a new beginning,You went off of what you know.
You lost your reasons,
You stopped believing,
You burnt out ,you could not blow.
 
Off you went the stars stopped burning,
You burned down so deep and low.
You lost your reasons, you stopped asking
You could not enjoy your own show.
 
Don’t base it on instinct- there’s no reaction.
Don’t look deep inside, there was no chain reaction.
Don’t base it on instinct- there’s no reaction,
Don’t look deep inside- there was no chain reaction. No. No.
 
Off you went, the stars stopped burning,
You went off of what you know.
You’ve lost your reasons, you stopped believing
You could not enjoy your own show.
 

Don’t base it on instinct- there’s no reaction.
Don’t look deep inside, there was no chain reaction.
Don’t base it on instinct- there’s no reaction,
Don’t look deep inside- there was no chain reaction. No. No.
 
 
Leavin' (Point, 2007)

I laid a note down on your pillow
The future's not as bad as it seems
I hope some day you will forgive me
I know I took away your dreams
..by leaving.
I'm not coming back. I'm leavin'.
 
Who did you love, I wonder
Who did you see?
When you looked into my eyes, it was not me.
And it hurt me so bad when I
Showed you all I can be
Your closed mind still turned me into
What you wanted to see.
 
And what you put me trough
Made me too good for you
Made me too strong to stay
 
You'll realize what you've lost
You'll feel the pain you've caused
You will embrace yout fate
Because now it's too late
 
You screwed me up so bad
I can't even dream away reality
You screwed me up so bad I can't even
Find a single quality in me
 
I'm leavin'. I'm not coming back. I'm leavin'
 
Who did you love I wonder
Who did you see
When you looked into my eyes
It was not me
It hurt me so bad when I showed you
All I can be
Your closed mind still turned me into
What you wanted to see.
 


Leavin' (Counterpoint, 2007)

Please stay.I just can not believe
that you’re trying to leave
what we’ve got.
 
Don’t leave.
I just want you to think
About how deep I’d sink
With you gone.
 
Cause I need you so badly,
I’m in love with you madly,
Don’t leave.
 
If you go,
Don’t forgive or forget.
Don’t look back or regret
What you know.
 
If you leave
I will try to deceive
What my mind has perceived
All along.
 
That I need you so badly.
I’m in love with you madly,
Don’t leave.
Cause I need you so badly,
I’m in love with you madly,
Don’t leave.
 
I don’t want you to feel
Sorry for me
When I’m gone too.
Because I only lived
This wonderful life for you.
Because I only lived
This wonderful life
For you..
 
I Call You (Point: Counterpoint, 2007)

You held my hand when I thought that I was lost.
You were beside me when I needed you the most.
And it's because of you that I have become what I am.
We grew very distant and that is how it all began.

Chorus:
Now that your heart has stopped under my hands
And you've lost expression on your face
I call you, to please come back.
Now that your eyes are nothing but a stare
And your body is just laying there,
I call you, to please come back.
But you left and you will never come back again.

I covered you in hate and I did everything absolutely wrong,
I broke you down completely, even though you were so strong.
You tried to help me, but I was rotten to the core.
You gave me all you had, I laughed and wanted more.

Chorus:
Now that your heart has stopped under my hands
And you've lost expression on your face
I call you, to please come back.
Now that your eyes are nothing but a stare
And your body is just laying there,
I call you, to please come back.
But you left and you will never come back again.

I held your hand while you were getting lost.
I'm sorry I couldn't help you when you needed me the most.

I swear that I pressed down as hard as I could
Begged you to come back and I hoped that you would.
But you still left without saying good bye,
It hurt me so bad that I couldn't even cry.

Your heart has stopped
Under my hands
And you'll never come back, never come back.
Your heart has stopped
Under my hands
And I'll never see your face again.
Your heart has stopped
Under my hands
And you'll never come back, never come back.
Your heart has stopped and I'll never see you again.
 

 
Slow Motion Yesterday (2017- Commitment Issues)

I bet you're smiling
when you find yourself in lines that left my lips.
And still defiling
inebriated moments of our slips.
I bet you're silently hoping I don't see your misery.
You're tired of trying, tired of lying,
and you want to break this ring.
 
You know, I catch myself
rehashing things we said so long ago.
They're still stuck in here.
 
I get tired, close my eyes,
to chase my dreams, escape my fate.
But what I find when I'm inside
is that I'm locked behind your gate.
The path you traveled every time
is etched into my gray.
There's no tomorrow, there's no now,
I'm in slow motion yesterday.
 
You bet I'm smiling
when I find myself in lines that left your lips.
And still defiling inebriated moments of our slips.
You know you catch yourself
rehearsing words that never left your throat.
They're still stuck in it.
 
I get tired, close my eyes,
to chase my dreams, escape my fate.
But what I find when I'm inside
is that I'm locked behind your gate.
The path you traveled every time
is etched into my gray.
There's no tomorrow, there's no now,
I'm in slow motion yesterday.


________________________________
 
So Long (2017 - Commitment Issues)

Deafening silence
Bouncing off these floors.
We're use to violence.
It's the first night I won't sleep alone.
In image of
How I feel about this all,
I'll go out
And bring them back
And lean each one
Against 

A wall.
I fill these rooms with screams and moans.
One for every year you took.
One for every one I lost.
I'll fall
So far I'll learn to live like wind,
Land on everything we've built,
Break down every part.
So long!

Denial
Made it hard to let go of the rope.
You're vile
And I haven't read your horoscope in weeks.
I haven't craved you, not at all
'Cause I go out, and bring them back,
And lean each one against

A wall
I fill these rooms with screams and moans:
One for every year you took,
One for every one I lost.
I'll fall
So far I'll learn to live like wind,
Land on everything we've built,
Break down every part.
So long!


I'll fall
So far I'll learn to live like wind,
Land on everything we built,
Break down every part.

So long!
I'll fill these rooms with screams and moans:
One for every year you took,
One for every one I lost.
I'll fall
So far I'll learn to live like wind,
Land on everything we've built,
Break down every part.
So long!

____________________________
 
Run (March in the Dark: Chapter II, 2015)

Lately I'm tired of thinking
I'm riding a ship that's sinking
I'll lay here and float along
Blurring the lines between right and wrong.

I found some help in a bottle
It hurts every so often
It brings up the filth
And drowns all the guilt
It makes it all feel forgotten.

I blame it all on the stars
You blame it all on the weather
But I see myself in this dark
And you can do so much better.

Run while you can now
I'll tear these walls.
Save yourself get out
Close all the doors
I'm on my way down
To drown my remorse
Save yourself, get out
Lock all the doors.

Run. Run. Run.

Doubting everything I stand for
Taking back "I'd never"
Do you see the way
I'm slipping away
I'm stripping away forever. 

The havoc I caused's so wrong
I know you won't last long
I know what's at stake
But I can't be fake
For both of us be strong.

Look a bit closer and you'll see
I shifted shape but it's still me
I know it's hard, but can't you see?
I'm drowning in my destiny.

 Run while you can now
I'll tear these walls
Save yourself get out
Close all the doors
I'm on my way down
To drown my remorse
Save yourself, get out
Lock all the doors.

Run. Run. Run.

 
Sin (Cost of Silence, 2010)

I feel my veins and hear my heartPumping hard
My limbs are numb.
I clench my teeth and bite my tongue
Gasp for air
In my lung.
 
I’m feeling
What you’re screaming out loud.
The room’s spinning
I can’t hear a sound.
 
 
Drag my nails
Down your skin
Watch your eyes glow as we enjoy the sin.
 
Hold you down
Watch you lean
As we join together in between.
 
 
Our bodies soaked
They shake in time
To our song
We love this crime.
Some thoughts provoked
But you and I
Can’t be wrong
It feels so right.
 
I’m feeling
What you’re screaming out loud.
The room’s spinning
I can’t hear a sound.
 
 
Drag my nails
Down your skin
Watch your eyes glow as we enjoy the sin
 
Hold you down
Watch you lean
As we join together in between.
 

 
Hunter (March in the Dark: Chapter I, 2014)

You can't help that you're a hunter 
And you've been digging this deep hole 
And pretending you are neutral, 
Trapping all your victims whole 

You've been telling the bystanders 
Bloody skins under your claws 
That you're just there to understand us 
But little do their poor souls know. 

Take it away, 
Take it away! 
And I'll still 
See the light in the moving shadows. 
Take it away! Take it away! Take it away! 

In the dark I heard your heart beat, 
As calculated as it's cold. 
And now I know I'm just another pawn at your feet 
That you'll use to fill the void you call your soul. 

Chorus: 
Take it away, 
Take it away! 
And I'll still 
See the light in the moving shadows. 
Take it away! Take it away! Take it away! 

The road they walk on is illusion 
And soon they'll take the fall 
And they all will go down under 
Without cushion for their blow 
The road they walk on is illusion 
And soon they'll take the fall 
And they all will go down under 
Without cushion for their blow 

Chorus: 
Take it away, 
Take it away! 
And I'll still 
See the light in the moving shadows. 
Take it away! Take it away! Take it away! 

The road they walk on is illusion.

 


Apathy (March in the Dark: Chapter, I 2014)

I've been desperately trying to write you this song
Hoping that some day you'll like it and start singing along.
I've been desperately trying to put these words in your mouth,
So you can hear exactly what I heard that made me go south.

You said "I wasn't gonna tell you, but I can't pretend."”
You said "Last night she blew my world and now this has to end."”
While I was desperately drowning, you blew a white line,
You said I should have seen it coming.
You said that I’ll be fine.

Chorus:
That my emotions are shot 'cause I grew up and changed a bit
That I'm someone you're not, but we're still the same - you're singing it.
That I gave up the fight, you were the one remember it?
I slept alone every night, while you were out tearing it.

It wasn't her that caused our doom, it was the 60s way of life.
I think you let go way too soon, I was so mad I skipped denial.
And my apathy was self-induced by your perfume
So while you're standing there and blaming me
Think back and don't assume

Chorus:
That my emotions are shot 'cause I grew up and changed a bit
That I'm someone you're not, but we're still the same - you're singing it.
That I gave up the fight, you were the one remember it?
I slept alone every night, while you were out tearing it.

I spent all these years in silence, building up these walls
Swapping emotions with silence, just trying to get along.
Pills in hand, flirting with death, I stopped believing
That I want you back and I lost all track of feelings thickening.

Chorus:
My emotions are shot 'cause I grew up and changed a bit
That I'm someone you're not, but we're still the same - you're singing it.
That I gave up the fight, you were the one remember it?
I slept alone every night, while you were out tearing it.
Pull The Trigger (2017- Commitment Issues)

I woke up 'cause it's bright outside.
We had another raging night.
I stretch my brain to recollect,

To strike the match where dots connect.

I walked inside, my hands were clean,
My values high,
my plans to steer
Away from you
At least tonight.
You grabbed my hand.
You won the fight.

You make me do bad, bad things.
And I am the kind that clings.

I'm 'round your finger and you're making it spin, spin, spin.
You pull the trigger and drag me to where you've been,
Through every sin.
And I'm loving it.

I'm 'round your finger and you're making it spin, spin, spin.
You pull the trigger and drag me to where you've been,
Through every sin.
And I'm loving it.

Every time you touch my lips
I melt under your fingertips.
No need to chase next one,
Just sink
Under my skin,
Don't let me

Do any bad, bad things.
I am the kind that clings.

I'm 'round your finger and you're making it spin, spin, spin.
You pull the trigger and drag me to where you've been,
Through every sin.
And I'm loving it.

I'm 'round your finger and you're making it spin, spin, spin.
You pull the trigger and drag me to where you've been,
Through every sin.
And I'm loving it.

Oh. I'm around your finger.
I'm around you.
I'm 'round you every single spin.
Take me where you've been.

I'm 'round your finger.
I'm around you.
I'm 'round your every single sin.
Take me where you've been.
And I'm loving it.

________________________

 
The Ledge (2017 - Commitment Issues)

Mamma said:
"It's alright, darling. I will pave the road ahead.
 You're so good, so perfect, and so charming,
 More important than anyone can comprehend."

But here you are: a spineless meat; uncovered scar.
I've done my part,
I'm done.
So you can just whine and take

A sigh of relief, 
A breath of regret,
A jab to release,
Substances to help you forget.
But the crossroads are here,
Sink, or swim to the edge.
The future is clear- I'll be fine,
The Earth doesn't need your mouth
To spin.

The air is thick, your poignancy alarming.
If we don't go now you'll wind up dead.
You're "bleak and sick."
How dare I call it whining?
Your bruised up ego raising riots inside your head.

But here you are: a spineless meat; uncovered scar.
I've done my part,
I'm done.
So you can just whine and take

A sigh of relief, 
A breath of regret,
A jab to release,
Substances to help you forget.
But the crossroads are here,
Sink, or swim to the edge.
The future is clear- I'll be fine,
The Earth doesn't need your mouth
To spin.

____________________________
Your Last Song (March in the Dark: Chapter II, 2015)

I hovered tired
over ashed empire,
weaker than I ever thought I'd be.

You stayed undercover,
then talked about another
until I fell on my knees.
You enjoyed how it feels.
You wanted me to crawl.

No.
This is your last song.
You see how it feels to be down on your knees?
Enjoy the final blow.

I'm sorry I kept you
believing I would let you
blind me with your glow.
As fast as I met you,
I'm gonna forget you.
This is where all your true colors show.

I'm not fire
enough for you but
you don't know how bad you'd burn
if I go after you.
This false desire
is just a way
to forget this disaster,
get over her faster,
there's nothing here for you.

 

 
Finality (Cost of Silence, 2010)

The past has made us sore. 
We wanted so much more.
Undressed the innocence to end this war
There's such a difference outside this door. 

Now for the last time
Close my eyes on you
Wash my hands of you.

Shocked and left unsure. 
Is this what we worked for?
Fight the reality that made us one
Embrace finality,
the end, it's done.

Now for the last time
Close my eyes on you 
Wash my hands of you. 

Now for the last time
Close my eyes on you 
Wash my hands of you.

 
Red Eyes (Cost of Silence, 2010)

My words can’t give you comfort at this time.There’s nothing I can say to make it fine,
But if you need a shoulder for crying
I’ll still be here when everyone stops trying.

‘cause I can see it in your eyes,
I can hear it in your voice.
I can feel it on your skin.
I can hear it in the noise

When you tell me how you’ve been
And you say you’re doing good
Then you turn around and leave
And you wish that you could just

Tell me how you really feel and someone would understand.
Tell me how you really feel. Someone would understand.
Tell me how you feel. Someone would understand.
Tell me how you feel. Someone would understand, but…
 
You.
 
I can see what’s behind those eyes
Don’t lie to me, ‘cause I will catch your lies
Just look away and say what you have to say
For once be brave and acknowledge that you’re not okay.
 
It’s such a shame that you’re taking all the blame.
You don’t see that without you it’d all be the same
And it’s night all the time, all throughout your day
Just scream out your feelings, don’t be ashamed.
 
 
Your red eyes
Don’t look fine.
Please stop crying.
Say it loud,
Stand your ground.
Please, stop lying.
 
I can see what’s behind those eyes
Don’t lie to me, ‘cause I will catch your lies
Just look away and say what you have to say
For once be brave and acknowledge that you’re not okay.
 
It’s such a shame that you’re taking all the blame.
You don’t see that without you it’d all be the same
And it’s night all the time, all throughout your day
Just scream out your feelings, don’t be ashamed.
 
 
Living Room Floor (Cost of Silence, 2010)

I am sitting alone
On our living room floor
And the thoughts in my head
Are not able to form.
 
But I’m hearing your steps
As you walk through the door
If I’ve got nothing to say
I’ll say nothing at all.
 
 
So I’ll leave.
I’ll get far away from here.
Just me.
I’ll leave.
 
And your endearing words
They come rushing my way
Asking what you should do
Asking if you should stay
If you leave here
I know it’s all because of me.
 
 
So I’ll leave.
I’ll get far away from here.
Just me.
I’ll leave.
 
So I’ll leave.
I’ll get far away from here.
Just me.
I’ll leave.

 
 

War (Cost of Silence, 2010)

Do you, do you, do you really know?
Are you, are you, are you honestly sure
That your mission in life
Is to take someone’s breath away,
Someone’s child away?
 
Do you, do you, do you think it is fair
Are you, are you, are you honestly saying
You acted out on someone’s strife
You’ll take your guns and then decide
It is time to end a life.
 
 
Choking on silence
You say what you’ve been told
Opposing violence
Then you go into war
 
Get your own mind frame
You are out there alone
You’re finished. Dying
Was this worth fighting for?
 
Do you contritely
Hate those lies posters said?
Do you sleep lightly
Hearing screams bullets made
You acted out on someone’s strife
Put your guns down and decide
It is time to start your life.
 
 
 Choking on silence
You say what you’ve been told
Opposing violence
Then you go into war
 
Get your own mind frame
You are out there alone
You’re finished. Dying
Was this worth fighting for?